im here to make it up for yesterday's entry. i'm ultra sorry for stressing myself up too much. sometimes i dont even know where's my limit. and i keep thinking that i CAN do better, and that i'm not to my highest potential to play the organ piece utterly well. yesterday night was just plain crap. i'm really sorry you guys. especially nadiah. im really sorry. thanks, mr brightside. i appreciate your effort:/ but im still feeling rather similar this morning. i woke up lazily. went down, and i played the piano. i love my siblings, well, just now. they sang along to my piano accompaniment. to songs like superman, angels brought me here and eternal flames. why? cause those are the only song pieces i have with me. oh wells. i should get new ones, really.

i'm currenly listening to Hold On. just now was Promise. i'm gonna listen to erm, Jimmy Gets High after this. to make me feel a little bit better. then i'm gonna watch Take The Lead, only the dance sections. well, yes. to relax myself, and to make sure that i wont feel the same way later on my way to the auditorium. sigh. ms sara wont be watching me): she'll be teaching instead. oh wells. never mind. I CAN DO IT! man. when you asked me to say "i am happy" i really took a deep breathe and said that. and i smiled with tears swelling. i dunno people. is it me being too sensitive? or is it my nervous feeling. sigh.

i finished the M&Ms i bought for myself yesterday already. and my mother just gets me pissed so easily. she thinks that eating chocolates makes you think slower. i dont understand her. but i think it helps me destress myself. im in need of green m&ms. yes. i told you already. ):

can someone be nice to message me at about 12 today? and just talk crap and make me laugh and smile? so that i wont have to think about worrying for organ class. yes. so that my time travelling there would be spent like, talking on the phone or something. :/ i think it'd really help. (: since i wont be meeting anyone who could give me green m&ms.

OKAY! i'm starting to crap already(: haha! see how effective the Jimmy Gets High song is(: okay. and now im listening to "Im moving on" by rascal flatts. yeaps. it's really motivating :D like the song Hold On, though hold on is already so old. but the meaning will always stay with me(:


i didnt feel comfortable when you said "nvm la. you have your problems and i have mine." i want you to know that whoever everyone else feels about you, i'll be the wall of support for you. alright? come to me with a smile, and i'll give you a warm hug. the voice of your tears brought my tears out. and i'm utterly sorry. ):

so i'm currenly listening to Perfect, the Live version. during their concert. i'm getting better already(: but i still insist on getting green M&Ms. whoever nice enough can just go up to me and say "cheer up!" and i'll look at you with a blurr face, not realizing that you read my blog. haha. (: okay. that was my second "haha" thourought the whole of this entry. there's this survey i just did on friendster. and i didnt put in any HAHAs at all. when that word's my favourite :/


i feel like an emo kid ):
i dont like it.


i want to do well for the competition this afternoon!
i desperately want to qualify for finals.
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